I miss ME
Posted by wendy on 2011/01/31
I’m trying not to regret the haircuts too much. It’s hard, though. I don’t like having short hair at all, really–and I guess in a few weeks, that’s not going to matter very much, but right now I’m having a hard time looking at myself. I miss having braids and pony tails and I hate how stupid my hair looks when I wake up. ooo…I’m whiny today, I think.
I got hit with a pretty bad sinus infection this past weekend–it completely knocked me flat. I was gutted–still am, actually–because I know M and I were kind of expecting that chemo would make me sick, but this was just a stupid sinus infection, you know? It was so frustrating to be sick while he was here–I hate missing a single minute of enjoying having him near me–but, I can look back on the last week and be so glad he was here. He took excellent care of me. The more time I am with him, the more convinced I am that I made an excellent choice.
But, he’s gone now and I’m home alone and that’s not always a good idea for me, I think. I think it’s a combination of “being sick” and “feeling tragic”. I do feel sick and tragic today, for sure. eh. Maybe tomorrow will be better.